My mother is Cuban and my father is Romanian. Both sides of the families were very traditional in their cultural beliefs and were involved in pagan rituals such as santeria and fortune telling. Both sides of the family resorted to violence and curses when angered.
Verbal attacks and at times physical attacks were very common in my family. For some reason both sides felt that anyone who disrespects or violates our honor deserves retaliation. So, I grew up with a non existent code of honor and justice and no fear of confrontation.
For as long as I can remember I always had an overwhelming feeling of sadness and anger. There was nothing I could do to hold it back or remedy it. In the past I had no control over releasing it by unleashing it on the people that hurt or angered me. Several times I faced legal consequences due to this behavior. After having my first child I desperately wanted to change but couldn’t.
I became a believer at 26, I could not understand why I could not activate the fruits of the Spirit in my life and why I had no self control in this area of my life. After-all, I was taught that the Holy Spirit lives in me and greater is He in me than he that is in the world.
I dove deep into God’s word and studied it for many years and worked hard to apply it in all areas of my life. But when the time came to apply what I knew I failed miserably causing damage to most of my valued relationships. Then I would go into a cycle of anger, sadness, depression.
Finally, I connected with Phyllis at Above and Beyond Counseling Center. She explained to me what was happening and why I had no control over those emotions and actions. I learned that I was not going crazy, that in fact, I did not have control over the evil forces working in me. I learned about generational curses, word curses, and the power of that agreement brings with it.
I learned about the doors I had opened to the evil forces by participating in certain behaviors and rituals. I learned that it was greater than I could understand and Phyllis helped me to understand. She gave me the tools I needed prior to and after deliverance to stay free.
I can only describe my experience with deliverance as a Spiritual renewal. Once each evil force was called out and commanded to flee I felt lighter in my spirit. I could feel more room for joy.
Days and weeks have passed and I no longer wake up every day with the overwhelming feelings of sadness and anger. I am no longer easily angered. I no longer feel out of control. I no longer feel like I must fight and defend. Do I get sad yes. Do I get angry yes. But I have self control now. And anger and sadness do not reside in me anymore. I now have the freedom I have longed for the freedom that God’s word says I can have.
