What issues were you dealing with? Be specific.
My early life was full of emotional pain. I lived with a sense of rejection that I am now sure was generational, and came through my mother’s family line. I am convinced also that the influence of freemasonry in our ancestry played a role in my childhood spiritual problems. One early memory is of me clinging to my mother, not wanting to grow up, because life was so painful.
Eventually, this nagging sense of not feeling acceptable brought shame and anger. As a result I became rebellious, which led to many sins, including deep bitterness, unforgiveness, and sexual sin.
I trusted Jesus Christ as my Savior at the age of 23, and I knew He had saved me, but the ugly doors that the sense of rejection had opened, did not close. For years I wanted very much to change, but couldn’t. I now understand that my choice to remain an emotional child prevented my spiritual growth as well. The result was that when I began to desire a deeper walk with the Lord, I ignorantly followed false teaching, and in 2010, fell under demonic oppression.
For the next almost 6 years, I suffered painful physical symptoms, nightmares, sexual harassment, and sorrowful, tormented emotions. I was pierced with a sense of desolation every morning when waking up, and I cried nearly every day. I repented of everything the Lord showed me, and then went through counseling, and He graciously began to work in me, but I never had an opportunity to experience deliverance until He led me to the videos from Above and Beyond. After watching many of the videos, I contacted them to schedule a deliverance session.
How where they affecting you?
Shirley George, my counselor, a very calming, gentle, and encouraging person who is just full of Jesus’ love, guided me through the deliverance teaching and preparation. Over the years, the oppression had affected me to a point that I was doubting my salvation, and I was heading toward hopelessness of ever being free. But Shirley reassured me that what I had learned from the videos was true, that even maturing Christians can and do have demonic oppression. I had a sense that her comforting and reassuring words were coming from the Holy Spirit, like rain on the desert.
What changes have you seen?
Then the time came for me to go through deliverance, and that day something lifted off me – it was instant, and it was unmistakable. Even people in the grocery store were different! Where before I seemed invisible, or got blank stares, now I always find myself talking and laughing with people I’ve never met before, and they react with acceptance and friendliness. I could go on – everything is better. This is after a lifetime of living under an oppressive cloud! I have this brand new, delightful life. I am growing and maturing in the Lord. I now look forward to sharing my faith and testimony with others, as the Lord gives me opportunity.
As for the physical and emotional pain and nighttime attacks, as I have stood firm in the Lord, they have faded. I can sleep again. If they try to return, as they sometimes still do, I just speak, out loud, verses such as Isaiah 54:17, and I personalize it by saying, “No weapon formed against me will prosper”, and many other verses that I keep ready. Then I choose to just rest in Jesus, and the demons never get anywhere. For me, it is a process of becoming increasingly free. They can’t regain any kind of control because Jesus answers the door now, not me! My gratitude to Him is indescribable!
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I say to any believer suffering emotional oppression by demons, or even an attack on the physical body like happened to me, build up your faith in the Lord’s promises, know and absorb into your soul who you are and what you have in Christ, and do not be afraid of demonic entities. Jesus defeated them at the cross, and as you actively engage in this deliverance process and cooperate with the Holy Spirit, He will deliver you. I can attest to these truths by my own experiences with the Lord: He just cherishes you. You have His Spirit. You are already seated with Him, and you are eternally forgiven. You are His precious child. And it is His will for you to be free, peaceful, and full of His love for the rest of your life!
-Barb